Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Insanity Day 38 & 39: WHAT Frickin' Recovery?!

Okay.  My body is officially a mixture of BLAAAAAAH.
Shaun T needs to get his people together and rename the recovery CDs because they are totes misleading.  MISLEADING I tell you!
You know what yesterday was? TORTURE.  Torture and faceplanting.  I did a LOT of faceplanting.
You know what month two of Insanity is for?  It's meant to wipe that satisfied, smug look on your face that you're wearing after completing month one.  It says, "oh congratulations, you got through month one? You must be so proud of yourself?  You must be feeling much stronger now right?  Good job.  I'm going to make you cry and wish you never heard of Insanity."
*whimpers* I don't even know what to say about yesterday.  Heck, the reason why it happened yesterday and I'm only blogging today is that I wasn't even sure my body was going to make it.  I scraped almost all the skin off my elbows and I could barely lift my arms up over my head today. 
But good news? It's going to make me stronger.  I just know it.  I just have to stick with it.  I can do it.  You know what yesterday was?  My weakest recovery workout.  
You know what today wasn't?  My strongest Interval Circuit.  Yesterday completely kicked. my. butt.  I had nothing to give.  But I stuck it through.  I'm pretty sure though that I I didn't finish any of the circuits.  I just couldn't.  Everything felt like a struggle.  When I couldn't pull through, I got up and jogged.  So, basically I jogged for a long time.
It wasn't the same as the first time I did this workout.  I felt really disappointed because each time is supposed to be better than the last and it just wasn't.  
And I was so proud of myself for being able to do push ups.  Insanity said, HOLD UP.  You can do one KIND of push up.  Plank push ups...where your elbows go back instead of sideways?  I got ZERO game.  I faceplanted going down and I had noodle arms and couldn't even push myself back up.  GAH!!
So new goal this month.  I'm GOING to do plank push ups! My elbows are going to go back if it's the last thing I do and my face will NOT eat wooden floors.
Alright, y'all.  I put my time in and now it's time to focus on the rest of my life.  
I'm also learning that all of this...life...lifestyle change...it's all about balance.  I know this past couple of months I've been really focused.  I've been afraid to do anything different.  To venture away from anything.  I freak out of things don't go as scheduled and I feel guilty and while it's ben getting some good results, it can't last.  The whole point of all of this is to make it last.  Because it's not a diet.  It's not just doing something only for a little while.  It's being able to maintain.  It's about being able to balance.  To make good choices and but to relax a little.  Freaking out about going over calories, even by a few hundred or so...it's not healthy.  I don't want to be afraid of food.  I figure it can't be developing a good relationship with food.   So now, besides trying to live through each workout, I'm adding something more.  I'm trying to balance.
So no more letting my husband pick up the slack for everything.  I've got to get back to real life and unfortunately, real life includes chores and cleaning and grocery shopping.
Real life also includes going out on a date with my husband tonight :) We're going to wander around Chapters while holding hands and look through some cool books.
Have a great night, y'all! 

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