Monday, December 31, 2012

A Year in Facebook Statuses

January
  • Happy, happy New Year, everyone! May 2012 be the best year yet! Here's to unknown blessings and adventures to come! May you all face it with your family, friends and loved ones at your side! 
  • Oh no. I just realized I forgot to charge my 'I give a crap' battery last night. Please hang up and try again on Monday.
  • Just got my E-Mail notification that I am officially part of an indoor Ultimate Frisbee team! This E-Mail also outlines that my team's name is Disc Pigs. Clearly the universe is punishing me for something.

February
  • Thankful for free evenings and weekend calling: Chewy was drunk-dialling my BB's phonebook - and by drunk-dialling, I mean he was walking all over my BB. *LOL* 
  • Sustained a scraped knee injury at frisbee today by diving and making the most amazing, seemingly impossible catch known to all Ultimate frisbee universe. By that I mean I was running and fell all by myself...while everyone else was on the other side of the field.
  • Staying up as opposed to waking up to 4:01 seemed like a good idea at the time, but SO worth it - for my PB and the inner technogeek in me, that is; everyone else, please consider this your disclaimer. Approach with caution. 
  • Me: Bart, you don't even read my blog :(
    Bart: I live your blog. And then I clean up after it.
    Touché, Mr. Bolton, touché...
  • Ugh. It's official: Down and out for the next few days. Thinking non-stress-inducing thoughts. I should probably get to sleep then...

March
  • Don't forget to spring forward tonight/tomorrow morning, friends!
  • After helping Kristine and Ushi move last week, I am now throwing out everything I own so if we move in the future, I won't have to carry it. Except for the couch...Kuya Marvin is gonna position and re-position our couch 8 times just so I can see what it looks like *LOL*
  • Me: Bart, watch The Hunger Games with me!
    Bart: What's it about?
    Me: Remember the movie Gladiator, where they had to be the last one alive to get out of the arena? It's like that, but with kids.
    Bart: -.-
    That sounded different in my head...
     
  • Things are literally rattling in the house from the music from the university neighbors. Meanwhile, I spent the day getting RRSPs, figuring out my investment risk tolerance, filing taxes, looking for a house AWAY from this neighborhood and looking up noise complaint info for tonight. I'm officially old and intolerant of young people having this so-called fun.
  • Laughed through 21 Jump Street!
  • It's so cheesy, but I'm loving the Bring It On marathon! A little silly fun before the Walking Dead finale!
  • Officially registered for the Niagara Falls 5K run! Here's to beating my last chip time! Went out for a "run" today at lunch and it was NOT pretty! *LOL* Back on C25K!
  • Watching Tiana's practice for the recital. First time seeing it and I think I embarrassed myself by crying a little *LOL*
  • Happy 30th Anniversary to mom and dad! Wishing you 30+ more anniversaries to come and thank you for setting a wonderful example of happily married life with all the work, effort, patience and love that goes into it every day! Love you!       
  • Happy birthday to our beatiful, ball of sunshine of a goddaughter, Lexy! We love how you always have a smile on your face and always so happy! We love you, munchkin and wishing you many more blessings to come! See you tomorrow! Love Ninong Bart and Ninang Tootz!
  • So excited to be cheering Johnalyn on for Miss Teen Philippines! Girlfriend's killin' it! So proud!

April
  • Three jackets? It's not excessive if you get LOTS of use out of all of them (and if they're 70% off!) 
  • Dance party in the car for the two hour drive back to the hotel! Thank you, Grove City! It's been fab! 
  • Course Instructor: If the Mayan calendar is right and the apocalypse starts, don't worry about the assignments. Just spend time with your families. L. O. L. 
  • Prepárate Cuba, estaremos allí en 40 días! Una piña colada, por favor! 
  • Jewelry and dessert party was a lovely success today! Ladies, thank you so much for a wonderful afternoon. P.S. Someone drank all my wine!
  • 9:00 pm - Meant to do the first assignment for my intermediate Excel course that's due next week. 10:47 pm - Just finished doing ALL the assignments for the entire course. Huh.
  • Packing lists, stalking TripAdvisor, creeping the forums, airport lounge upgrades, seat selections, oh my! 32 more sleeps and the 'planning for Cuba' craze has set in! But first up...the Virginia-Baltimore 'stuff-your-face-with-cupcakes' adventure with my crafty girls!
  • Yay! Got my first goal/touchdown/point during the last game! Summer Ultimate next, who wants to plaaaaay?
  • For some reason, I feel like trying out a high tea afternoon sometime. How very 'oh la la!' Big, floppy hats optional?

May
  • Congratulations Lulu and Christian! Beautiful wedding!         
  • Flying out of Buffalo for Virginia/Washington/Baltimore next week for five days, back home for five days and then flying out to Cuba for a week! I've been bitten by the travel bug and I keep getting E-Mail notifications of more awesome deals!
  • I'm not a mom just yet, but listening to my "kids" in the GVO youth group makes me the proudest EVER. I feel very blessed and honoured to know a bunch of thoughtful, humble, intelligent and open young adults. ♥
  • So...it didn't go EXACTLY as planned, but I had the funniest, adventurous Mother's Day with my mama yesterday!
    Mom, thanks for being the BEST mama to be stranded with on the side of the road in downtown Toronto! It wasn't a musical, but how can I not love spanding quality time with you any way it happens! Love you! (So...just flowers next year? LOL)
     
  • Classes are going great but I'd really like to shoot some guns now, please :)
  • Busy day planned out! Fancy morning with high tea and a cupcake adventure, then, messy afternoon at the shooting range and then eating crabs! Lots and lots of crabs!
  • Gun safety lesson = DONE! Let's shoot stuff!
  • Flight = Delayed :(
  • Delays = missing all connecting flights, so I've been re-routed to JFK. They cut my Detroit flight and I'm headed straight to Buffalo in three hours, then another two hour drive and I'll be home to husband and Chewy tomorrow! I felt so bad for the gate people freaking out due to all the people yelling at them after we were deplaned. I was very nice and flexible and was upgraded to first class for all the troubles :)
  • Boarded delayed plane. Sat down. Asked to deplane. AC on plane is broken. Delayed another hour.
  • Flight from JFK to BUF just got cancelled *cries*
  • Aaaah! Home sweet home!!!
  • DJ is playing 'Afternoon Delight' at this party.......at this children's party. I feel creeped out.
  • Gotta love fam jams. My heart is happy :)
  • See you in a week, Canada :)

June
  • Currently being eaten alive by mosquitos in Cuba, but it's a small price to pay for the awesome week we've been having! But home is where the heart is and I'm looking to being back home this Tuesday (I'll probably think this only ONCE since the plane lands and then I'll wonder why we ever left!) 
  • Using up the last few minutes of my internet card and then one last drink at the bar for tonight before heading back to pack! ...Okay, last two or three drinks at the bar! :)
  • What people do in the name of a higher power often says more about the nature of who they are than it does of the one they worship.
  • Made Chewy peanut butter popsicles for some cool, sweet treats. Officially Chewy's favourite person.
  • Yeeeeeeah! Awesome ultimate frisbee night! Finished with a WIN! One point for me and a couple-a smackdowns! :D
July
  • Woke up at 7 am yesterday, finished up a cake order, drove 8 hours and no more rooms left at the hotel! Bart and I are killing the next 4 hours playing Monoply on thr PlayBook at McDonald's and then another 4 hours more driving to VA Beach! Happy weekend everyone!

August
  • Through our ministry we are on FIRE: Fruitful, Inspired, Renewed and Empowered!
  • Finished the Ultimate Frisbee off with a WIN!!! One week off and then Fall season at Riverside!

September
  • Tea party at Langdon Hall is done. I need a STEAK!
  • "Thank goodness we go back to work! This long weekend was too long!" - No one, ever
  • Five years in the blink of an eye...
  • Really enjoyed our first Cirque show!
  • VEGAS. is. BOOKED!

October
  • I think I threw out my back trying to be sexy at the gym's hip hop class. It wasn't sexy and it wasn't worth it! *LOL*
  • We've had a few safety notices for attacks around campus areas, mainly geared towards women, and YET, I'm driving home and I see countless girls walking down the street at night with their heads bent over their cell phones texting/messaging and basically overall not paying attention to anything going on around them. COME. ON. GIRLS. I know it's sad that we're living in times where we're not always safe walking around at night and I don't want you walking around scared or paranoid, but you gotta help yourselves too! PAY. ATTENTION! Put your phones away, keep your keys in your fist and just focus on getting from point A to point B.
  • Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Today I remember all of my family and friends who have lost their precious children too soon.
  • Day 3: Slipping in a puddle of your own sweat while doing moving push-ups with Shaun T. That's #Insanity!
  • Got my smexy on with kickboxing at the gym! Now I'm getting pumped for tonight's famjam to celebrate the one and only Kristine's 29th BIRTHDAAAAAY!

November
  • I knew my work day was at an end when I said to a kid paying by debit: "If you have a chick, just stick it in the bottom" as I handed him the debit terminal. *shakes.my.head*
  • I'm on the other side of the border, but I'm proud that the clocks were only set back an hour on Sunday and not 50 years today! FORWARD! /Politics
  • Sorry, Mittens. If it's a legitimate election, America has ways of shutting that whole thing down. Looks like it was legit, 'cuz you've been shut. down
  • Just finished the first month of Insanity - 50% down, 50% to go! Stats since Insanity Day 1: 18 lbs down and I can do push-ups without landing on my face. I think I need a chiropractor *LOL*
  • Shaun T is trying to kill me, y'all.

December
  • Just had the best dance party over at Andrew's and Erin's! Back with the fam and ready to welcome 2013!     
                               

Catherine in 2012

What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?
  • Lost 30 pounds
  • Went to Cuba
  • Shot a gun
  • Baked a wedding cake
  • Went crabbing

Did you keep your 2012 new year's resolution and will you make any more for next year?
I don't even remember making any, so I guess that would be a no. I have not yet made any for 2013.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that I recall...

Did anyone close to you die?
No. I am very thankful for that

What countries did you visit?
  • Baltimore, Maryland USA
  • Virginia Beach, USA
  • Varadero, Cuba
  • Cayo Santa Maria, Cuba

What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
Smaller clothes!
A baby :)

What was your biggest achievement this year?
Losing 30 pounds in three months
Baking a wedding cake

What was your biggest failure?
Failing to start being serious about my health and well-being a lot sooner

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Thankfully, no!

What was the best thing you bought?
My Polar HRM to replace the one that was stolen last year :(
The Insanity workout DVDs
Kettlebells

Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Bart's - who else lives through my blog life (ie. baking cakes and scattering everything around taking pictures of them and leaving them behind) and then cleans up after it? He's supportive about every crazy shenanigan I get myself into!

Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
I wouldn't say depressed but I sure know someone who's behaviour is completely appalling and I can't believe he can be okay with living his life the way that he does without any thought to others or the consequences of his actions

Where did most of your money go?
Hmmm, cake supplies, baking cake orders, making cakes for other people, then when I was over cake stuff, workout systems, gym membership, DVDs, workout equipment, gear and of course digital cameras - always digital cameras

What did you get really, really excited about?
Going crabbing in Virginia Beach, shooting some guns at a range, doing high tea parties, going to Cuba - TWICE!

What song will always remind you of 2012?
Party in the USA - Miley Cyrus Apparently that came out in 2009 - whoops! 
Somebody that I Used to Know by Gotye totally fits with what happened with a person that I thought I knew, though

Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) Happier or sadder? Happier
b) Thinner or fatter? THINNER!
c) Richer or poorer? Still richer on paper, poorer in terms of what's actually in my account

What do you wish you'd done more of?
Taken more pictures, worked out more, kept in touch with people more, blogged more, cleaned more, saved more money

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Ate less nasty fast-food, worried less, procrastinated less, spent less

How did you spend Christmas?
With my family in CUBA!

How many one-night stands?
None that I am aware of...

What was your favourite TV program?
Big Bang Theory

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't hate her...

What was the best book you read?
I read a lot of books, though I'm not sure any of them can be classified as the BEST book I read in the year...those are few and far between!

What was your greatest musical discovery?
I wouldn't say it was the greatest, but I bought all of Taylor Swift's records *LOL*

What did you want and got?
I wanted to go to Cuba with friends and we did.  I wanted to celebrate Christmas in Cuba with the family and we did.  I wanted to lose weight and I did!

What did you want and not get?
I wanted to get pregnant...but it hasn't happened...YET!

What was your favourite film of this year?
Hmmm...maybe The Hobbit. 

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I enjoyed 2012 very much. I can't think of any one thing that would have made it better...besides winning the lottery or something!

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
Being proud that I was the smallest size at AddionElle *wince*

What kept you sane?
My secret Twitter account where I could actually "say" everything that I was thinking so I wouldn't have to bottle it all up inside *LOL*

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Celebrities and public figures are of no concern to me

What political issue stirred you the most?
  • President Obama winning his second term of presidency for the United States of America
  • The gang rape of a 23 year-old student in India
Who did you miss?
Out of sight out of mind?

Who was the best new person that you met?
Me...30 pounds lighter! *LOL*

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012:
At the risk of sounding like a cliched after-school special...you really can do anything you put your mind to.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Insanity Day 46: Max Holiday Punishment


Who ever said holidays were about eating?  They clearly had no personality because they SUCK! Why couldn't they have just said, the holidays are about DONATING food ONLY!  Or, the holidays are aaaaall about NOT eating! Fasting is FESTIVE!
But nope, for some reason, some dope and a bunch of his friends were like, let's sit around and eat stuff and tell ourselves we're feeling all warm and fuzzy while stuffing our faces with things that could clog our arteries and pores!  And for some reason, that tradition has totally caught on until now, with days before Christmas, everyone feels the need to celebrate with food! As if a celebration couldn't happen without food.  
*grumbles*
Sorry, folks.  Clearly, I'm a little bit kerfuffled.  Since Wednesday, it's been "celebration" mode.  Wednesday was a staff dinner and unfortunately, the person planning it felt the need to have it at a pub.  A PUB! You know what their healthiest item was?  A chicken taco salad in a deep fried bowl.  I tried my best to be good, but then the next day was a holiday party/jewelery party. And what was there??? FOOD!  Hahaha, okay, that one I shouldn't act like I was surprised there was food, I brought a platter of crackers topped with granny smith apple slices, 5-year aged white cheddar and prosciutto!  Mmmm...prosciutto...the night wasn't as well-behaved as the night before.  I popped hors d'oeuvres in my mouth like they were illegal substances and the cops were knockin' down the door and I had nowhere to hide the stuff.  *wince* I also had a glass of wine *double wince* GAH!  As soon as the glass was done I immediately switched tI already figured the damage was done.  Friday, well, whattaya know, ANOTHER Christmas party!  I was able to fare a lot better here because I was on high alert considering the couple of days I had before.  Saturday was actually the next time I was able to work out.  UGH.  Taking that long a break?  My body can feel the difference.


I took the punishment without complaint because I could practically feel cheese essences oozing out of my pores and it needed to get GONE!
In all honesty, I'm probably being really extreme.  I didn't really go overboard, but I went a little crazy that I couldn't even really log much of what I ate?  I mean, how do you log delicious jalapeno/apricot filled brie spread over toasted, olive-oil drizzled baguettes.  OMG, I think I'm re-living the moment.  
Soooo, where was I? It was no surprise that Saturday's workout felt HARRD.  I trudged my way through the workout and alternated between going hard and then wanting to just quit or die...whichever came first.  
Still don't have any plank push-up game, but it's starting to get better.  I can't get down, but I'm hovering as opposed to just moving straight into faceplant.  I have a feeling that I'm relying entirely too much on my arms and not enough on my chest, but I've still got two weeks of Insanity left.  I can DO it.  Plank push ups are in my FUTURE!  They just HAVE to be!
CONFESSION: Ever since I've been able to do push-ups, I've sort of been having a love affair with my arms.  There's like....muscles there!  I'd be int he middle of a conversation and cross my arms and then totally lose track of the conversation because I'd get all fascinated that my fingers are touching muscles!  Then I'd flex them and stroke my arm and then flex some more and then poke at the muscle and get all giddy that there's actually a muscle there! And then I look up and realize the person who was talking to me is looking at me with a mixture of disgust and amusement on their face.  
Sooo...after the workout punishment from holiday hell?  I had to get ready for two more parties.  Ugh.  :(

Monday, December 10, 2012

Insanity 40 - 45: Can't blog if you're unconscious...


...okay, so perhaps that may be a slight exaggeration, but it's pretty darn close.
I may have dropped off the blogosphere for a bit, but not from the wonderful world of Insanity - though it did slow down a bit!
Lemme back-track if I can, here.  That's why I always want to get my blogging done immediately after a workout so that I can make sure everything is still fresh - yes, even the sweat!  
My last entry was my flipping out (as much as a semi-conscious person can) after "recovery".  I'm still having a bit of trouble getting shirts on and off because I tore up my elbows pretty good with those high plank/low planks!  Gotta say, they do make for some excellent conversation though when people ask what happened to my elbows and I have to explain that I got them from Insanity. *LOL* CONFESSION: Totally feel hardcore when I explain it to people.
There were a couple non-Insanity days the last few days that I was stressing out over, but it's the holidays!  Friday I didn't have time to do any workout because it was my husband's work Christmas party.  
What can I say about that party besides *wince*  I started off with the best of intentions.  I had given myself some limits and allowed some leniency.  I don't drink so wasn't really tempted by the open bar, but I did allow myself one virgin caesar (and it was SO good I decided I wasn't going to think about the three days' worth of sodium I probably consumed).  Dinner, I was okay with.  I relaxed a little and I opted to have the salad with the cream dressing and did away with the delicious crusty rolls and butter.  I made sure I had more greens than dressing and then I turned down pasta and chose instead to have one small roasted potato.  Since they were small, I let myself have two, but ended up trading the other one away to my husband in exchange for his extra piece of roast beef.  So I had a moderate portion of roast beef and a small chicken breast with the beef "au jus".  I was pretty proud of myself for my give and take attitude.  I was happy with my choices and sat down and ate.  They announced dessert and I didn't even care because first off, it was in a completely other room so I would have had to get up out of my chair and walk down a hallway to get it (still lazy LOL) and second, sweets aren't really my thing.  So I had no qualms about missing dessert.
.............................so the thing is, though....
I don't like a lot of sweets.  You can put 50 chocolate bars in front of me and I won't even be tempted to eat even one.  But  this particular hotel where the party was hosted has a specialty bread pudding.  I was fine when I thought that they were going to serve a cheesecake or something generic that hotels would normally serve as dessert at a wedding or something.  But someone walked in with a dessert plate of bread putting with caramel rum/butter sauce and I was out of my seat and out the door before I could even register the fact that my eyes had zeroed in on that plate like I was a frickin' spy satellite from space.  I'm Asian so I'd never even heard of bread pudding until two years ago when my husband and my in-laws first started having Christmas dinner at this hotel.  So basically, for the last two years, I've only had bread pudding ONCE in a whole YEAR.  This year, we're going away for Christmas so that means I would miss my ONE chance to have it this year.  And now all of a sudden, here it is being presenting itself to me.  It was FATE.  Shaun T and his angels were practically saying, "here you go: you've EARNED this."  You can't just ignore Shaun T sending you a message like that!
While eating this pretty hefty pile of bread putting smothered in sauce, I'm telling my husband that I'm not going to be mad at myself for eating this.  I haven't fallen off the wagon or been particularly bad in a long time.  I'm going for it!
Once it was gone, I was so mad at myself.  Ugh.  To make it worse, I opened up my Twitter feed and the first thing I see is: Eat to meet long-term goals, not short-term satisfaction.
Awwwww, maaaaan!!!  Why? Because it's so true and really, the first moment that life presented me with a test? What did I do? Throw all the things I've been trying to teach my mind out the window about food and just dove straight into caramel sauce.  I know I have to find a balance and to not get to the point where I'm scared of food or to foster an unhealthy relationship with food, but I just don't think I'm there yet, where I can relax a little and allow myself small indulgences.  Because I already proved right there that I can't do small indulgence.  I went whole hog and covered that plate like there was a famine on bread and I would never see it again EVER. 
Ugh.  I don't want to always be freaking out over food.  I just wish I could trust myself more around things that I already know aren't good for me.  Or at least to even have the will to allow myself to have something with a DECENT portion size. 
Saturday, it took me a while, but I was right back on the Insanity train.  Kind of used it as a small punishment and when I felt tired, I kept right at it or slowed down but kept moving and kept asking myself if that extra scoop of bread pudding that I put on my plate was worth it.  *LOL*  Apparently, I can be a bit of an extremist....
Sunday was another Insanity-free day as it was Ultimate Frisbee day!  I can't get over how much I LOVE Ultimate Frisbee now.  I LOVE that I can literally run in circles around some people where before I couldn't even make it down the field at a slow, painful jog.  I love it that there was a girl who reminded me of the old me on the field who actually said she didn't even care if we scored so long as this would all stop.  That was me.  Really.  That WAS me.  I had to tell her to keep going.  I told her that I said the exact same thing a year ago but here it is, a year later.  I had to stop myself from gushing on and on because I didn't want to be that commercial sounding person.  After the game (we WON! Oh another factor in how much I love Ultimate Frisbee - we actually WIN games now! LOL) I told my husband that I wanted to get in an Insanity workout even though it was my off day to make up for the Friday that I nmissed.  It ended up that one of the other teams getting ready to play had no subs at all, so myself and another teammate ended up playing ANOTHER game.  I was PUMPED! Not only was I feeling good after our game, I was feeling good playing another game - and we helped them pull a win, too!
Honestly, not to sound all after-school special or cliché, but the old Catherine couldn't make it 1 minute running around in one game.  But this Catherine...this Catherine is fun to watch.  She runs and she laughs and she jokes around with people.  She's fun.  She's perky and she's energetic.  She also traded in her super long sweatpants that had to tie up because her old pants used to fall down because her stomach would push it down as she ran and her size XXL t-shirt for Adidas SHORTS and a size L t-shirt.  I don't even know this Catherine, though I'm liking what I'm getting to know about her.
I forgot about her this morning though when I could barely get my body out of bed *LOL* Whatever Catherine is, she's also getting old *LOL* I felt all groan-y and creak-y this morning! Like I could have used some drops of oil in all of my joints just to get moving.  Today, my husband and I did Plyo and even though it felt like I had nothing in me (almost literally, work stuff hit the fan and I ended up only eating about 500 calories throughout the day) we still hit it and got it in.  And even though this is still hard....there was some moments where I felt stronger.  The squat jumps/twists...I noticed I could get my butt down lower and get more power into my jumps...my power jumps were recognizable as power jumps as opposed to flailing arms coupled with a weak jumping jack lookalike.  I'm getting there.  Every workout is still a challenge, but I'm breaking it down.  Focusing and trying to get better than the last.  I've still got ZERO game with plank pushups, but I stayed on my knees and I kept at it.  I can't WAIT to be doing those plank balance push ups.  It's going to look a-maaay-zing.  And then I can sit and reminisce about the time where I thought it would be impossible to ever be able to do them.  
I might just be little ol' me, but I'm making history every day in my own little world "and I'm smilin' cuz I LOVE it."

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Insanity Day 38 & 39: WHAT Frickin' Recovery?!


Okay.  My body is officially a mixture of BLAAAAAAH.
Shaun T needs to get his people together and rename the recovery CDs because they are totes misleading.  MISLEADING I tell you!
You know what yesterday was? TORTURE.  Torture and faceplanting.  I did a LOT of faceplanting.
You know what month two of Insanity is for?  It's meant to wipe that satisfied, smug look on your face that you're wearing after completing month one.  It says, "oh congratulations, you got through month one? You must be so proud of yourself?  You must be feeling much stronger now right?  Good job.  I'm going to make you cry and wish you never heard of Insanity."
*whimpers* I don't even know what to say about yesterday.  Heck, the reason why it happened yesterday and I'm only blogging today is that I wasn't even sure my body was going to make it.  I scraped almost all the skin off my elbows and I could barely lift my arms up over my head today. 
But good news? It's going to make me stronger.  I just know it.  I just have to stick with it.  I can do it.  You know what yesterday was?  My weakest recovery workout.  
You know what today wasn't?  My strongest Interval Circuit.  Yesterday completely kicked. my. butt.  I had nothing to give.  But I stuck it through.  I'm pretty sure though that I I didn't finish any of the circuits.  I just couldn't.  Everything felt like a struggle.  When I couldn't pull through, I got up and jogged.  So, basically I jogged for a long time.
It wasn't the same as the first time I did this workout.  I felt really disappointed because each time is supposed to be better than the last and it just wasn't.  
And I was so proud of myself for being able to do push ups.  Insanity said, HOLD UP.  You can do one KIND of push up.  Plank push ups...where your elbows go back instead of sideways?  I got ZERO game.  I faceplanted going down and I had noodle arms and couldn't even push myself back up.  GAH!!
So new goal this month.  I'm GOING to do plank push ups! My elbows are going to go back if it's the last thing I do and my face will NOT eat wooden floors.
Alright, y'all.  I put my time in and now it's time to focus on the rest of my life.  
I'm also learning that all of this...life...lifestyle change...it's all about balance.  I know this past couple of months I've been really focused.  I've been afraid to do anything different.  To venture away from anything.  I freak out of things don't go as scheduled and I feel guilty and while it's ben getting some good results, it can't last.  The whole point of all of this is to make it last.  Because it's not a diet.  It's not just doing something only for a little while.  It's being able to maintain.  It's about being able to balance.  To make good choices and but to relax a little.  Freaking out about going over calories, even by a few hundred or so...it's not healthy.  I don't want to be afraid of food.  I figure it can't be developing a good relationship with food.   So now, besides trying to live through each workout, I'm adding something more.  I'm trying to balance.
So no more letting my husband pick up the slack for everything.  I've got to get back to real life and unfortunately, real life includes chores and cleaning and grocery shopping.
Real life also includes going out on a date with my husband tonight :) We're going to wander around Chapters while holding hands and look through some cool books.
Have a great night, y'all! 
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